Burn and Renew. Like a Phoenix coming out of the flames, stronger. Its an image I often think of at the end of the year.
This was a pretty good year for me considering...but it was a lot of work to make it so. This was a personal year...a year I went inward and dealt with a lot of things. My relationships with people...how am I treated? How do I allow myself to be treated? How do I treat others? How do I treat myself? "Is this working for me?" was a question I asked myself daily.
When I got sick of everyone's politics I turned away, changed the channel. When I got tired of emotional abuse and passive aggressive behavior I packed up my toys and went home.
When I got the feeling I was being used I opened my mouth and addressed it.
This was a year of No Bullshit for me. I needed it. I was pretty much a hermit just working to make ends meet but I had my nose in my business attending to me.
There was no gossip.
There was meditation.
There was no "escapism"... there was cold, hard looking at myself and my decisions and whys.
It was a year of growth. Pinpointing problem areas. Coming up with solutions.
Now on the last good day of the year I'm going into it with my chin up, plans under my belt and the cleanest my house has ever been on a New Years Eve.
Not drunk, no hangovers, thankful for health and family and friends. Gratitude for a roof and catkids and two hands that know how to make magic from nothing. Celebrating a year well done, a hard year but a year well done. May next year be as enlightened!
Happy New Year my friends!
This was a pretty good year for me considering...but it was a lot of work to make it so. This was a personal year...a year I went inward and dealt with a lot of things. My relationships with people...how am I treated? How do I allow myself to be treated? How do I treat others? How do I treat myself? "Is this working for me?" was a question I asked myself daily.
When I got sick of everyone's politics I turned away, changed the channel. When I got tired of emotional abuse and passive aggressive behavior I packed up my toys and went home.
When I got the feeling I was being used I opened my mouth and addressed it.
This was a year of No Bullshit for me. I needed it. I was pretty much a hermit just working to make ends meet but I had my nose in my business attending to me.
There was no gossip.
There was meditation.
There was no "escapism"... there was cold, hard looking at myself and my decisions and whys.
It was a year of growth. Pinpointing problem areas. Coming up with solutions.
Now on the last good day of the year I'm going into it with my chin up, plans under my belt and the cleanest my house has ever been on a New Years Eve.
Not drunk, no hangovers, thankful for health and family and friends. Gratitude for a roof and catkids and two hands that know how to make magic from nothing. Celebrating a year well done, a hard year but a year well done. May next year be as enlightened!
Happy New Year my friends!
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