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Ooh yes I did put my 44 year old body on the skateboard again 😂 Haven't hit the streets like that since I was a teenager! It feels great and f'kin scary too! Actually never thought I'd get back on one because I remember all the reasons why I stopped in the first place... falling on my back on a homemade ramp was the last straw at 16/17. Something about this year has just made me cast off a lot of fears and ideas I've had about myself. I'm living in a state of absolute freedom while many are living in a state of absolute fear. I am playing again. I've stopped caring about climbing around the monkey bars of a social scene and the "art world" and pretty curated galleries and trying to get in where I fit in. Big middle finger to that stuffy life- I'm doing it myself. Creating my island. Creating my stage. Creating my environment. Creating my joy. I stepped on the skateboard that wanted to throw me into the street and felt the fear of falling again, d…
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Skateboard Soup

Portrait of Contentment, yes I know it looks like things are flying out of my head. When are they not?Finally a weekend to myself and damn straight I'm making the most of it. I have things to do that sound ultra boring to the innocent bystander but to me sound cozy and indulgent. Like first things first...I'm making Caldo de Pollo (chicken soup). Sitting on the floor and assembling a little metal night stand and attaching a lamp shade to a lamp... boring but satisfying. Hanging in my studio and taking inventory of what supplies I need to order and making a project list. Masks need to be designed and put into the shop. I promised myself a brief fling with my bass guitar and definitely putting lake day on the calendar. Research on upgrading my business and maybe starting a new painting. Things are popping and shaking and I have so many ideas to unleash. This is what P PRodzillas brain is like at Saturyay at 4:30 am... And yes I'm on cup o coffee number 2 while you are snoozi…

Goals and Rest

Studio View: Newest piece completed for "Texas Women" , virtual opening Oct 2 with Western GalleryWrapped up the extra side gig project and after zero days off finally saw ONE...and couldn't flip my off switch so spent the day varnishing the new pieces and doing finishing work on the sides.Not being able to turn off and rest is a real problem sometimes. So I'm scheduling a little "Lake Day" getaway next week. Lounging, Lake, Picnic food and hiking...and no paintbrush to wield. First time I've had something nice on the calendar in a very long time. It's no beach getaway but I'll take it.I've been steady hitting goals and busting butt so a relax day is in order. It's about time for new paintings to come to life and new goals to be written down and conquered.I bought myself those pretty flowers as a little reward. I kinda love having flowers around me and it reminds me that I am worth it. I'm a very valuable employee to myself 😂 That&#…

Saturyay!

New prints will be stocked in my shop soon! I'm pretty excited to get these in my Shopify. They will be hand signed and printed on nice Rives paper. I'll get a release date posted soon if you are interested! Work, work, work is consuming me at the moment and yes...I missed a whole week of workouts. This should have been my first week of Phase 4, the last phase of Metabolic Renewal. I've done so well ... Then birthday week happened and crashed my diet and then I signed up for a side gig in Lewisville and have been hustling on car stuff. So yeah, I suck. I slipped. I'll pick it back up on Monday though and kale smoothie is the order of the day today. Sometimes life gets hectic. Forgive yourself and jump back in it. Because I'm always working for bills to be paid and a roof over my head I forgot the art of getting yourself something nice. A small reward for busting butt daily keeping life glued together. I bought myself a very affordable lamp set (two lamps for the pric…

The Magic of Lists

Lists can be damn magical. If you've ever written down goals (or even just basic things that need to get done) and knocked them off your list you realize the power in lists. For me, the sheer act of writing it down and bringing it from a thought to something I can see and look at is very powerful. It is how I quit a job I hated once upon a time and still it serves me. The list. The magic list.I've been super productive during the pandemic and steady knocking off things on my list. From simple things like "clean fridge" to big stinky tasks like register car, get legal, etc. Just knocked that one off yesterday and it feels amazing to have my freedom back. To know I can go anywhere now without having to dodge cops and tickets. To be able to drive to do fun stuff like hiking at State Parks, etc. Unless you've ever lived in an outlaw sort of way, where one ticket is your ruination because you are broke... You might not understand what a big thing this is for me. I fee…

September

(detail from "Hide and Seek") Birthday month started off beautifully with lots of friends and family wishing me happy birthday and some even making time to do some social distance stuff. So appreciated and needed. Now I'm good on people for awhile 😂 and need to cocoon in hermitude and work, work, work! Finished another painting for the Texas Women's show at Western Gallery (show is virtual and opens online Oct 2) I'll be posting more about it as we get nearer.
Birthday cakes were plentiful this year...I usually have to buy myself a slice from somewhere and no one ever just gives me a cake. This year there were TWO 🤤

My sweet thoughtful friend and co-worker brought me some flowers ♥️🥰 Feeling so loved!


My mom had cake and ice cream waiting for me and we had a nice visit. So many people cannot see their family right now so believe me this was the real treat this year and yes I feel so lucky I was able to.
This is 44. I'm feeling healthy, strong and ready to work …

Honor the Day

Just a short blog today. I'm hoping to spend most of my day here- wrapping up this painting once and for all. Today marks the 10 year anniversary of my Dad's passing (pictured in my studio) and it will be nice to complete another piece of art on this day. Another contribution to the world remembering I am an extension of him still. "We" are finishing the painting, together.In years past I would spend the day crying, purposely wallowing through the memories, songs and photos. It has never been a good day for me. But over the years time changes you and the grief becomes like another part of you. Always there, a new facet of who you are. Accepted. I quickly went through my Facebook memories today and was glad I had deleted a lot of mourning posts to never revisit. I really didn't need reminders of the pain. It's with me every day after all.Here I am ten years later, feeling like it was just yesterday and also a lifetime ago. Life is funny like that. I'll do…