Art Plunge

Time enough for everything....even being lazy I had high hopes for doing ALL THE THINGS this weekend. And it started out that way- I completed a pet portrait and got to the gym and...then everything kinda stopped. 😆 Sometimes this really bugs me because Im a high functioning PRODUCER and feel like something can and should be accomplished every day. But in actuality it is totally OK with the Universe if you just enjoy the art of nothing. In fact it's really probably healthy to just turn that button OFF and be a little potato for a day or two. So I did. There was napping and going to bed early and catching up on sleep and some television that I fell in and out of awareness of. Not even on opium- guess I just needed some ZZZZ's. My sleep at night gives me about 4-5 hours then Im usually up and active and might catch a nap or not. So I guess this weekend was me just catching up. But now it's Monday and I'm doing all the things I didn't do before the sun is e...

As someone who has perpetually had to MAKE DO her whole life- learning the art of abundance has been a necessary lesson. You are used to having nothing or not much. You don't feel like you even know what the word abundance means until... Your health gets taken away. And that's all you suddenly want in the whole world. Or you suddenly can't walk anymore...and you realize just what an amazing gift being mobile really was. Or you lose someone so dear to you that your whole life will never,ever be the same. Then you realize just how abundant you really are. Sooo many things to take gratitude inventory over. So all of these things have happened to me and may still happen again. I have paid close attention to the lesson: I Am Abundant One thing that has taken me a long time to handle up on was MAKING TIME. When you don't feel like you have time for anything but work, the grind, the hustle and the hunt- you dont feel abundant. Time is your one real currency. Let me repeat...

I wish I could tell you what the catalyst was for my new way of living- but even I'm unsure. Maybe you can only carry  stuff for so long and then it has an expiration date like spoiled milk and it gets tossed. I only know that I used to make mountains out of molehills constantly. Must please so and so, let me bend over backwards to do this and simultaneously screw myself in the process. Everything that passed my eye was an opportunity to complain and sigh over...it was going to be hard. It was going to be an ordeal. I wasnt going to be happy doing it. It was going to take too long and not pay enough. About two months ago that milk expired. Now I approach things differently. I stopped thinking everything was a big deal. I stopped bending over backwards to give 500% where only 100% is actually needed. And I can say "this isnt working for me, pass" and not feel like a bitch. I feel perfectly fine protecting my spirit, time and peace of mind. I approach things with ...

Summer Vibing on my One Day Vacation from Dalcatraz! My bestie had an extra ticket and an extra bed and invited me on a fun little roadtrip to Austin this weekend. The idea of escaping Dallas (aka DAL-CATRAZ) was a no brainer. Plus he had booked a room at the little quaint motel we had been hitting up for a number of years- The Austin Motel. What is our favorite thing about the Austin Motel? THE POOL! They have a cute little retro Kidney shaped pool that never used to be crowded but the times they have a-changed. Just as Dallas has exploded in growth- so has Austin- in fact they exploded first and done it bigger. I'm kinda sad about it but thats the way the world is going. We have infested and overpopulated everything. However- we were not gonna let that ruin our vacay. We got our fun in the sun and pool time nonetheless- people be damned! AGGHHHHH HUMANS! They have now added a bar where there used to be none. Im a fan of not having a bar shoved up my nose everywhere...

   "Jardine Zamora" collected and sold In freelancing you go from Ground Zero to Cloud 9 in the blink of an eye. One minute you're stressing no money to pay rent and the next minute you can be celebrating an art sale. Such is life- you learn how to weather it. So last week was an art sale, getting paid for graphic design work and being able to pay some bills and keep my internet on. Woohoo! I was thrilled my friend and art collector picked this one up because it was the last of its little era. Next week will be me traveling to Houston to finish up a wall I designed for the reception area of a Houston Omni hotel. A kamikaze job of ladders and paint and not much else. Wish me and my back lots of luck! Then it's off to Austin on a quick road trip OUTTA HERE! I got a hot date with a BLUE POOL and that's currently all Im thinking bout! To others this is a typical weekend but to me its the only little vacation I will probably see this summer. One day at the po...

Mercury is in retrograde and I'm in observational mode watching things "settle". Much like the leaves, mud and gunk (in the bird fountain outside) needs to settle before you can see what's in there. Thoughts, feelings and life needs to settle before you can see what's in there. Observing- that is my meditation this week. Not reacting- but observing. I finally got to finish a personal project yesterday! Painting this little pet portrait as a gift to my dear friend. "Ryuoki" was a dear little thing that graced my newsfeed for well over ten years now and I was deeply moved when she left and it also dredged up feelings and memories of my own loss. I never have time to paint as gifts and its always painting for work and money-which bothers me greatly. You should always have time to GIVE to loved ones,friends and family. My life is such a struggle financially that I feel deprived in the real things that matter. So with the mindset that I was making t...

Yes it feels good to be done serving things that don't serve you. Hang up the apron, the kitchen is closed. I will always be a well of helpfulness, friendship and support but now I will be all that... tucked into a jungle hideaway that you will have to seek out because Im not chasing anymore. You will have to find it and therefore earn it. And that is self care to me. I just can't with selfish people anymore. Friendship/Relationship is a back and forth of support, watering each other's plants and listening as much as talking. And I mean it REALLY FEELS GOOD to be done, like peace just kissed my forehead and slowed my heart beat to normal again. You have to be absolutely realistic and let things be. The same way I had to leave a toxic work environment and people who daily tried to make me feel insignificant- is the same way I have to treat people who don't know how to treat me...possibly they don't know how to treat anyone... and that probably extends to the...

It's a new Monday and the third Monday in a row of lower back pain. Im resigned to being old and complaining about my back now! 😂 No, I'm kidding. I'm actually ready to beat its butt and get on with life. Im having my morning coffee with an ice pack firmly against my glutes. How's that for morning rituals? Chet Tucker of Arcadia Brands met with me this weekend and gave me a few of these rad spaceman shirts that I just happened to have designed. They are being launched this week in time for 4th of July and will be going out to dispensarys all over the place. If you want to check out Arcadia brands- hit up their site: https://www.arcadiabrands.com/ Here is another shot of me wearing the shirt-they are super comfy,soft and great quality. I'm working on the next design and am enjoying working with them and fully support what they are doing. I used to feel a stigma about openly discussing cannabis/cbd- but I'm 43 and don't care anymore about ...