Your Path?

The hardest part is starting

The hardest part is starting so I have found it best to put yourself on autopilot for the first hour or so and not over think it. My work needs a flow and elegant curves as it's skeleton so if I'm overthinking it  and stressing it will show in the paint. And so it has started...

I have to pop off a commission piece today and then I can get back to the big guy. I have been getting invitations to do little things here and there and am trying to weigh them carefully so I'm not spreading myself thin and also trying to find out if things are worth my effort and time or maybe not so much. I have done a lot of time with wasting my time on things just for social reasons. Sometimes that is fine and you never really know what connections you will make. Sometimes you do things that didn't seem fruitful but something fruitful came from them so every opportunity- even the seemingly small ones- should be weighed and decided fairly. For me right now I am in the middle of a big process- getting together a cohesive series of paintings. A body of work. For the purpose of showing in a gallery. Having to juggle the little "sellables" is hard but necessary and I have to try not to entertwine the two. Which brings me to the title of the blog "Your Path?" because sometimes you think you are on YOUR path but you're really on someone elses. Other people have told you what you were doing was cool and so you kept at it, giving your energy to something to have your ego stroked but really it was a hollow victory and didn't fulfill the deep important part of you. Sound familiar? I used to give my energy to booking local bands and that is what I equate that feeling to. Spinning wheels for imaginary reasons and leaving myself to tired to paint. In fact for many years no one even knew I was an artist, they knew me as a DJ, event thrower, go go girl, etc. It wasn't until I had a long talk with myself and looked deep inside that I realized I was suffocating the real true me and my purpose in life.  That is why it is important to remember your BIG PICTURE GOAL and keep it in sight. For me that is a big body of work for the purpose of gallery shows. I may have to turn down a few things along the way so I can give my energy to that but hopefully all will fall into place. I am on my Path and am walking my path alone as everyone should- your purpose in life doesn't need an entourage and people telling you YES or NO. You just know in your gut if you're going the right way or if you got detoured.