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Honor the Day


 Just a short blog today. I'm hoping to spend most of my day here- wrapping up this painting once and for all. Today marks the 10 year anniversary of my Dad's passing (pictured in my studio) and it will be nice to complete another piece of art on this day. Another contribution to the world remembering I am an extension of him still. "We" are finishing the painting, together.

In years past I would spend the day crying, purposely wallowing through the memories, songs and photos. It has never been a good day for me. But over the years time changes you and the grief becomes like another part of you. Always there, a new facet of who you are. Accepted. I quickly went through my Facebook memories today and was glad I had deleted a lot of mourning posts to never revisit. I really didn't need reminders of the pain. It's with me every day after all.

Here I am ten years later, feeling like it was just yesterday and also a lifetime ago. Life is funny like that. I'll do a dedicated walk this morning to honor his walk here. I'll finish the painting. Some friends invited me to dinner to celebrate all of our birthdays. And in my heart and life I celebrate the man who helped give me life to enjoy this day. 

"Disfruta la vida"

Enjoy the life. I will Dad. ♥️

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