All you have is you

You are your own defender

Let me tell you where I am, briefly....as I have work to do. Freelancing and trying to work up a body of work at the same time. What does that mean? That means switching gears, painting what someone wants back to my own "personal" work. The works on canvases. The works I'm trying to amass to have a show someday in a gallery that I fit in. This is hard. Damn hard. When the work for others slows down, so does the rent money and it's not easy to paint your personal work when the rent money isn't there. Am I looking for some part time work? Yes I am.

Today my dentist took his last bite out of my funds, leaving me with a whopping $500 left to my name in life. I'm not going to get all depressed about it. I've been down to $7 and had angels save me in the nick of time. I know how to hustle. I have to be my own defender, salesperson and I have to also get in there and do the work too. Drained? Hell yes. I don't know if working a fulltime job is as draining as all this switching gears and hustling. It's hard work. Then you're cold calling, knocking on doors and getting no responses. You're trying be an "emerging artist" but no one's letting you out of the cocoon. It feels like that, frustrating but you know what kid? You just keep on keeping on. Work. Work. Work. Don't let it get you down. You have something inside all your own. Something is going to come out of all this knocking and work. I got a response back from a gallery I've been wanting to get my work into, it wasn't a promise of anything but it was a response saying they were impressed with my work and maybe, maybe, something, some time. That is so much better than NOTHING. That is enough for a hungry bird to have hope and keep on flying.

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